Sorry I have been gone

Hey all sorry I have been gone for a while,
Something I want to discuss is Black organizing. I have noticed a lot of conflict with it. When I was in high school, I was a str8 up liberal because that was fed to me and I kept reading and reading and reading about it. I read and analyzed every single Martin Luther King Jr. speech. I was not exposed to militant and/or radical organizers. I had mixed emotions about nonviolence but I was mostly for it since the Civil Rights Movement was the cause of many rights granted to Blacks. I was aware of the oppression because I saw it in my neighborhood with every Black boy I ever known in my neighborhood winding up in prison and other things. During high school when I was the president of the Black Student Union, I was all about educating myself as well as Blacks about our people and issues since we did not learn about it in the classroom. This was extremely difficult since I did not know everything and my advisors were not that big of a help either. Still we had discussions and readings every now and then and I was proud that we were on that path. This Black man did not believe in ethnic groups and told me that we should have only multicultural groups where everyone is welcome. I didn't believe in that melting pot bullshit because we are all different and Blacks should have the opportunity to lead and have a space where they can come together and celebrate their community. He was in the multicultural group at my high school. Then there was this member who called me an idiot because all we do is read and talk. He told me that reading is not going to help the community. He said we should be in front of the people talking to them about issues like Black on Black crime and gang violence. I told him I agree but we have to read while we are doing that too and we cannot just roll up on the community when we don't know what we are talking about. I also told him if he has connections then to set it up and I will support him. Unfortunately, he was all talk and came to 2 more BSU meetings and got tired of it. I learned so much from my BSU and at the end of my senior year I began reading about other BSUs and what they did in the communities. My racist white high school first ethnic org. was the BSU who happened to be very political at the time. Unfortunately, there was a lot of drama and it was overrun by some crazy bougie Black women and the politics were lost. So I thought when I go to college, the politics and organizing will be on point.

As I start reading more about grass roots organizing and Third World people, I noticed that the nonviolence liberal approach don't work! When your brothers and sisters are being killed, tortured, all over the world I am not gonna have a peaceful march about it. I'm going to get locked and loaded !!! MLK inspired a lot of people including me but I am nonviolent up until somebody wants to get violent with me. As I have been reading about Black organizers such as Garvey, Huey, and Malcolm I notice that there is division especially after reading a ton about the Civil Rights Movement. But there is division in all organizing especially with the working class and bougie folks. Working unity NOT unity but a working unity is critical for revolutionary change. People are all about unity but if you don't trust the people you are organizing with then it is not working unity. If there is division then how can the revolution happen?
These are just some of my thoughts after doing some reading. Peace~